MOMDOM... Reflections

So....I've been pondering this beautiful thought from Kim over at mauneyland.blogspot.com...she challenged us last week to ask the question "is there something in our world that breaks our heart?"  Now some of you might be taken back by this, but I honestly was nervous on what in the heck I was going to share on...SO here it goes!  


As most of you know, our family just moved from Morrison, IL to Denver, CO about a month ago.  My husband was asked to come to this campus, of our church family, and lead worship as well as take on an assistant pastor role.  The journey has been great and everyone has honestly transitioned so well.  We love it here!  We love the weather!  We love the mountains (although we haven't been up close and personal yet!)  We love the people in this campus!  We LOVE it!!!  


Have you ever loved AND hated the season you were in all at the same time?  If you haven't...I'm here to say and confess that is currently my situation!  I'm absolutely loving where we are, loving meeting so many new people, loving watching my husband lead so well, loving being able to stay home with my kiddos (privilege and torture all at the same time...ha) but all in the same respect, not too happy with the "momdom" phase I am in!  Feeling like I can't get a grasp on my kiddos...feeling like I have absolutely no routine or schedule (this is pure insanity for an OCD woman like myself)....feeling like my princess, drama queen, biter of a daughter is about to drive me mad...LOL...So there you have it....this is what has been bothering me lately!!!  This may seem very minor to you, but let me just share a glimpse of what God is doing in my midst through all of this!  


Now as much as I wish all of this would just change overnight and my life would begin to feel in order, I know that God is not allowing that to happen...He is more interested in my "character" than my "comfort" (thank you Chris Hodges -lead pastor of Church of the Highlands) for this amazing insight!  God is wanting to do a WORK on the inside of me when it comes to my role as a mom and as a wife of a pastor (can I get a witness from all my pastor wife friends!!!) I believe these roles are one in the same!  My burden and broken heart are for women who cannot find their place or value in God's plan!  And feel that they are just a "mom" or just a "wife to the pastor."  We have an extremely high value in God's eyes....He has a specific plan and purpose for each one of us that is UNIQUE to us...There is not an A+B=C equation...He didn't create us that way because we all have different gifts and abilities that we can bring to the table!  We must work through who we are...STARTING IN THE HOME...so we can be effective for HIM outside of the HOME!!!  


So this is where I'm at...I've entered into a new phase of "momdom" like I shared earlier and I'm asking, "okay, Lord what it is you want me to learn through this phase and season when I can't be as involved as I desire to be" This what I have been hearing from Him lately...


"die to self daily and serve your husband well and BE with your kids" - no strings attached
"die to self daily and serve your husband well and BE with your kids" - no underlying attitudes
"die to self daily and serve your husband well and BE with your kids" - no "what's in it for me"


This is not about me!  This is not about You.  It's about HIM and what He wants to do THROUGH us....if we will just allow Him!  Dying to self is NOT easy and I fall short every SINGLE day! But I'm encouraged to know that His grace is sufficient and He sees me as the finished masterpiece He created not as the mess of a human I am.  But, He doesn't want me to stay that way - SO I MUST MAKE THE CHOICE TO CHANGE!  


Whatever your burden may be....whatever is causing your heart to break....ask God to do a work on the inside of you so we can start changing our worlds by the example of Christ that lives on the inside of us!!!  




As for next week: 


I'd like for us to meditate on the new Hillsong song...."Cornerstone".....it is just absolutely UH...MAZE.....ING!!!!!!!!  You will not be disappointed.  It talks about God being our anchor and cornerstone in life!  Let's focus on the words of the song and share on what spoke to you most!  


Here is the link and the lyrics: 
CORNERSTONE


My hope is built on nothing less
than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
but wholly trust in Jesus' name


-Chorus-
Christ alone, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Savior's love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of All

When darkness seems to hide His face
I rest on His unchanging grace
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil

My anchor holds within the veil 

[Chorus]

He is Lord, Lord of all

[Chorus 2x]

Then He shall come with trumpets sound
Oh, may I then in Him be found
Dressed in His righteousness alone
faultless, stand before the throne